Anyway, I'm an enthusiasts for outdoor activities and I have a passion for mountain biking. The moment I got back and while I was at OBS I couldn't wait to get back on my bike and ride it, the trails at Crocker Range is an ideal trail for extreme bikers where it can really pushed your limits, you've to trail, ride and camp but overall it's an excellent trail if you are after adventure. While we were trekking, how I wished that I had my bike with me and my friends along with to cover the route up Crocker Range with our bikes.
When I got back, I met with my usual weekend group and we went riding our usual trails and it was magnificent and the following day they decided to go to a professional man made mountain biking park at Putrajaya. I was just too excited about it. We arrived at the place and the trails were awesome and about almost 2 hours into the ride we went to a fairly new and different trail from our usual trail where it had jumps, I reached the peak and looked down and the first expression was Wow! How am I going to clear this, I had feelings of doubts just looking down at the jumps and so I thought that I'm going to try this carefully and safe but I hesitated for a moment until I saw my friend passed me and went down for the jumps.
From the top it looked easy and so I decided to give it a try until the first jump, it felt really good in the air but at that time I knew I was going to crash I was pretty high up in the and BOOOOM I crashed, I must have passed out because and woke up with an excruciating pain on my cheast and shoulder. All i heard when i woke up was "Jon, can you feel your hands and legs, can you move your toes?" I tried to move but couldn't and all I wanted was to breathe.
The pain in my chest felt as if there was a knife pierced through my lungs, after a short moment, my friends decided to get me to a hospital and getting up was horror, a matter of life and death seriously! As I was walking I requested for water when I realised that there was blood coming out from my mouth and I coughed out blood. Trauma but I only knew at that time that I was in good hands and will arrive at the hospital to get treatment.
Arrived at the hospital and the first thing I requested was oxygen because it was difficult to breathe. The rolled me in for an x-ray and the orthopaedic surgeon came to me and said that I broke my shoulder bone and 2 hairline rib cracks. While waiting for the operation in 4 hours time I had my girlfriend by my side and before I went for the operation she just said, "please wake up from sleep", I'll be waiting.
It took 2 hours and when I woke up I was in the recovery room and they then sent me back to the ward. Oh boy, you wouldn't know how awake I was because of the antithetic and the medication. Soon after I saw my friends trickling in and soon the whole ward was packed. Was so happy to see all of them. The test came the next day when the painkillers started to fade off, to even move was a challenge and staying in bed without moving really is a pain in the neck. So I requested to be wheeled around the hospital but I just couldn't bear the pain.
The next day, the surgeon visited me and he said I can be discharged but he did advice me that at any point I have difficulty in breathing, please come back regardless of the time. I got home and the only place I was in is my room. I can only sleep in one straight position. Thoughts began to flow that it was very sad and depressing that I couldn't do anything but rest. My business came to a halt. At that time I realised that how important to work on my business, how I spent my time is so important that when I want to do something I can't. I began to look at life and ponder how much I can appreciate the moment that this is just an injury and it's time for a rest.
What about those without arms and limbs can do so much while I'm crying over this. So I decided that it's time to rest and rethink and improve on my business. It was a time of self connection and thinking what I wanted to do better when I get well. 3 weeks has passed and still after numerous follow up with the doctor he said that I cant do any heavy activities and so I took his advice but to ride again and even walk in trails was a phobia. And at that point I even had people saying that I'm paralysed and can't ride. Imagine how that felt. But I forgave him because experience requires time and patience. It was just his day that he felt good about it perhaps. I even had people telling me that I wouldn't be able to ride again like before and all the negative advice which I didn't need at that time. All I wanted was encouragement and positive support to get back up on my feet and face my fears.
So one day I decided to face my fears I hit the trails not riding but a walk. It felt as if a burden from me lifted and felt liberated and 2 weeks after I went on the bike again and this time with the doctors blessing I went in the trails. Boy it felt good and the best part is my usual riding group actually went along with my pace. In Feb I've to check in the hospital to remove the titanium plate with seven screws in it.
What I'm trying to say in this experience is this, at times live will really hit you and hit you really hard but it's what you decide at that moment that shapes you. I'm very grateful for this lesson, it thought me lot about patience, gratitude and love. I even found who my friends were and how much I was loved. Thats the best part of life as we are humans, as much ego you have, you'd still crave for that. LOVE. And Love above all else heals.
To those out there, you may be going through hard times in your life right now, my advice, keep going and get back up because when you get back up you can start moving forward.
Till my next post again, Live with passion and never ever give up!
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